The Cycle

from by The Hoils Dilemma

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A song about how I feel about the bus ride home when it's quiet and I can listen to music, rather than pay attention to the people around me. Edgy? Yes. Do I care? Yes. Did I write this song anyway? Yes.


And my friend tells me my songs all go G/D/Em/C in that order
And my other friend seems to think I’m falling back into that disorder
That leaves me staring out a bus window for hours, listening to underground hip hop
And even if it goes away for a week or two, the cycle never really stops
Where I’m walking home, with my eyes glued to one spot the whole way
Because I can’t bear for my vision to ever sway
[Chorus] Am/C/G/D
To see those other people, who I can’t explain all my thoughts to
You’d never think I’d be so good with secrets
Because I seem like an open book, I don’t seem to care
But when I wake up every morning, I don’t want to go anywhere
I’d rather stay in my house all day and sing all my thoughts away
Until I wear down my strings
And people will ask me if I’m doing alright, but who’s gonna say anything other than “I’m fine”
It doesn’t seem to matter how much stress people hold, but when they keep on living like that, their voices grow cold
So I’ll plug in my headphones, and I’ll climb up those stairs and I’ll let that bus take me anywhere
Where I don’t have to always look people in the eyes
And when they ask me how I’m doing, I don’t give answers I despise
Bridge: C/Am/G/D
There I’ll tell always tell people what I’m thinking
Cause when minds are confined, the world just keeps shrinking
And I don’t think people should pace in their rooms
Till early morning with nothing to do
My songs always seem to go that way
Because I constantly need something more to say
And this song seems to be going that way too
But I wanted to explain to you
What it’s like


from Up To December, released January 15, 2017
Thank you for naming this song, Jon! Also, thank you Ray for the music that inspired me to write this!



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I just write songs and things like that. All of my recordings are low quality, so hopefully you like that sort of thing.

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